I have worked hard my whole adult life to be excellent and do something meaningful with my life. I’ve seen things, been places, done things. When my daughter was a year old we moved away from the comfort and security of the home we first brought her home to, left friends, our wonderful little town, and I became a stay at home mom (I still worked, but from home while also caring for my daughter). To say this was a hard transition for me would be an understatement. I struggled deeply with depression and a sense of great loss. My answer to the pain was to make myself as busy as possible. This only made things worse. I felt tremendously lonely and purpose-less. I was in my “dark room.”
Have you been there? Ever feel like all of your greatest accomplishments are in the past? As if your work and vision are being ignored? Like you have so much to offer, but no one really cares? The feeling that everyone is too busy to listen… Are you in your “dark room?”
It’s not as if I do the things I do because I want applause from people. I do the things I do because they matter, they need to be done, and I have the skills to accomplish the task. Still, being noticed for your work is the “good job” that cheers you on and gives you energy to press towards the next goal. Being recognized for your hard work is like gas in the tank.
As I began my blog I felt so inadequate. There are literally millions of blogs out there. What would I say that would be unique?
I wasn’t sure why, but I felt such a strong pull to begin writing and putting my ideas out into the world. It’s actually a scary thought for me! I struggle to write deep things because I never want to be too vulnerable or say the wrong things. Creating and sharing recipes is easy! I’ll always be cooking, taking pictures, and sharing them with my friends. I love to feed people. Feeding someone is meeting their most basic need. I do love with food. But God is calling me to do something more. He’s calling me to feed the heart of my readers. It’s a weight I feel every time I write. I hear Him whispering in my ear “write what you know.”
A month ago I had the amazing opportunity to attend She Speaks conference. When a friend first told me about the conference I KNEW I had to go. I didn’t know how, but it just had to happen. In a series of miraculous events, God made it happen and I found myself sitting in amazing session after session at She Speaks. I was inspired and challenged on so many levels!
If you don’t know, She Speaks is a conference for Christian women who are speakers and writers. If you are a writer/blogger or speaker you NEED to get to this conference! It’s two days jam-packed with information and networking. On top of that there are worship services and moments for God to speak to your heart.
On the way to She Speaks I felt completely unprepared. More than once I thought to myself “WHY am I going to She Speaks? I don’t speak!” (Meaning public speaking; I DO talk!)
After two days of sessions like How to Build a Platform from Scratch, Blogging 101, The Art of Writing a Book Proposal, and spiritual challenges from Lysa Terkeurst, Christine Caine, and others, my head and heart were filled to the brim! I left She Speaks with so much knowledge, but more importantly I felt like I could actually do this. I can do this. I CAN do this. I AM doing this!
We all struggle with feelings of inadequacy, personal weaknesses, and self-criticism; I most definitely do. Let’s overcome and do something great, no matter who is watching.
This blog is called All in All: Every Day Life, Every Day Impact. What can we do today to make a difference? It doesn’t have to seem huge. God will give us the inspiration, and we just take the steps. Because HE speaks, we can speak too. Let’s speak peace, love, hope, and encouragement. Speak life.
I left She Speaks conference full of desire to do what God is calling me to do, whatever that may be. I’m leaving behind insecurities, rejection, failure, and fear. I’m accepting this big responsibility and walking in confidence.
As it turns out, I do have something to say. I do speak.