She Speaks
I began my blog during a time when I was feeling particularly vulnerable and unseen. Ever been there?

I have worked hard my whole adult life to be excellent and do something meaningful with my life. I’ve seen things, been places, done things. When my daughter was a year old we moved away from the comfort and security of the home we first brought her home to, left friends, our wonderful little town, and I became a stay at home mom (I still worked, but from home while also caring for my daughter). To say this was a hard transition for me would be an understatement. I struggled deeply with depression and a sense of great loss. My answer to the pain was to make myself as busy as possible. This only made things worse. I felt tremendously lonely and purpose-less. I was in my “dark room.”

Have you been there? Ever feel like all of your greatest accomplishments are in the past? As if your work and vision are being ignored? Like you have so much to offer, but no one really cares? The feeling that everyone is too busy to listen… Are you in your “dark room?”

It’s not as if I do the things I do because I want applause from people. I do the things I do because they matter, they need to be done, and I have the skills to accomplish the task. Still, being noticed for your work is the “good job” that cheers you on and gives you energy to press towards the next goal. Being recognized for your hard work is like gas in the tank.

As I began my blog I felt so inadequate. There are literally millions of blogs out there. What would I say that would be unique?

I wasn’t sure why, but I felt such a strong pull to begin writing and putting my ideas out into the world. It’s actually a scary thought for me! I struggle to write deep things because I never want to be too vulnerable or say the wrong things. Creating and sharing recipes is easy! I’ll always be cooking, taking pictures, and sharing them with my friends. I love to feed people. Feeding someone is meeting their most basic need. I do love with food. But God is calling me to do something more. He’s calling me to feed the heart of my readers. It’s a weight I feel every time I write. I hear Him whispering in my ear “write what you know.”

A month ago I had the amazing opportunity to attend She Speaks conference. When a friend first told me about the conference I KNEW I had to go. I didn’t know how, but it just had to happen. In a series of miraculous events, God made it happen and I found myself sitting in amazing session after session at She Speaks. I was inspired and challenged on so many levels!

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If you don’t know, She Speaks is a conference for Christian women who are speakers and writers. If you are a writer/blogger or speaker you NEED to get to this conference! It’s two days jam-packed with information and networking. On top of that there are worship services and moments for God to speak to your heart.

On the way to She Speaks I felt completely unprepared. More than once I thought to myself “WHY am I going to She Speaks? I don’t speak!” (Meaning public speaking; I DO talk!)

After two days of sessions like How to Build a Platform from Scratch, Blogging 101, The Art of Writing a Book Proposal, and spiritual challenges from Lysa Terkeurst, Christine Caine, and others, my head and heart were filled to the brim! I left She Speaks with so much knowledge, but more importantly I felt like I could actually do this. I can do this. I CAN do this. I AM doing this!

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We all struggle with feelings of inadequacy, personal weaknesses, and self-criticism; I most definitely do. Let’s overcome and do something great, no matter who is watching.

This blog is called All in All: Every Day Life, Every Day Impact. What can we do today to make a difference? It doesn’t have to seem huge. God will give us the inspiration, and we just take the steps. Because HE speaks, we can speak too. Let’s speak peace, love, hope, and encouragement. Speak life.

I left She Speaks conference full of desire to do what God is calling me to do, whatever that may be. I’m leaving behind insecurities, rejection, failure, and fear. I’m accepting this big responsibility and walking in confidence.

As it turns out, I do have something to say. I do speak.

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13 Comments on I Do Speak

  1. Courtney DeFeo
    August 22, 2014 at 2:28 pm (3 years ago)

    Yay Carissa! I LOVE this reminder. We can speak – the very heartbeat of our Lord. The words I have seen stick the most – are straight from His word. When we use the truth of God to fill up weary moms and encourage defeated women – He SPEAKS through us. Keep going !!

  2. Abby McDonald
    August 22, 2014 at 2:35 pm (3 years ago)

    Hi Carissa, I'm so glad I found your blog. I am your neighbor over at Courtney's link-up and had the pleasure of attending She Speaks this year also. Wow. What an experience. I can so relate to all of this. I too, moved around the time I gave birth to my first (about a year before) and I decided to be a SAHM. I also struggled with depression, feelings if invisibility, etc. The work God has done in me amazes me. Writing was a big part of it. Thanks for sharing your experience here. You blessed me and will bless others, for sure.

  3. Jodie Dye
    August 22, 2014 at 2:36 pm (3 years ago)

    Awesome Carissa! Nice meeting you! I look forward to hearing all that HE speaks to you.

  4. julijules
    August 22, 2014 at 4:36 pm (3 years ago)

    Thanks for the link up.

    Your post resonates with me. I have felt many of the same doubts, but like you. . .I too have something to say!

    With God, we've got this!

    Juli Bryant

  5. Bonita Rose
    August 22, 2014 at 5:08 pm (3 years ago)

    I loved reading your post… I too was blown away at my first ever shespeaks.. I'm def going next year.,are you? I agree. we can win so many to the Lord and make His Name known more.. but simply following our each indiv calling. We don't hv to be exactly like one another.. we can be who God made us to be… I'm excited to be on this journey with you.. to be more of a light.. to those that are so lost in this world. xo

  6. Toni
    August 22, 2014 at 5:26 pm (3 years ago)

    Thanks for sharing. I didn't attend SheSpeaks and have just recently even heard about it but it sounds amazing and like something that I NEED to do. I found you over at the SheSpeaks link-up with Courtney and am now following you on Bloglovin'. You're story sounds a lot like mine. I'm not a 'speaker' but I always felt like I had something to say. I started my blog not sure what I was going to say or write about and it has slowly been evolving …I still have a ways to go but I'm feeling more confident and am still trying to say what needs to be said. I want to encourage, motivate and help someone with my words … and even though I/you may do so .. we may never know who our words have touched.

  7. Mommie Daze
    August 22, 2014 at 5:50 pm (3 years ago)

    We all have a story that can help someone. It's important that we tell it. But I've struggled with those same feelings.

  8. Kim
    August 22, 2014 at 11:46 pm (3 years ago)

    I have been invited lately to teach, and I am definitely not a bible teacher. But, I keep telling myself that I have to talk, but it is God who speaks. He leads, we just have to follow. I enjoyed your post, it is very think-worthy.

  9. Gina
    August 23, 2014 at 4:58 am (3 years ago)

    Yes, we do speak-whether it's to one or to the many, God wants to use each of us. I love what Christine said, "if God assigns you, God will find you." That's been so encouraging to me since the conference. It's his responsibility to do that, my job is to be diligent with the ones he's given me.

  10. amy espinosa
    August 23, 2014 at 2:57 pm (3 years ago)

    Wonderful post Carissa! Growth is always a little painful~ but it's oh so worth it! Thanks for sharing!

  11. darcycottone
    August 23, 2014 at 5:27 pm (3 years ago)

    Carissa – I can relate so much to what you have shared. I too struggled with staying at home, mine was an un-diagnosed depression. I also thought it so hard to hit publish on my first blog post for a lot of your same reasons with a lump in my throat. But pressing forward wanting it to be what He wants in my writing is where it is at. Thanks for sharing. I look forward to staying connected to your blog and hopefully at the next SheSpeaks if we both end up there!

  12. Dreamer
    August 25, 2014 at 11:20 am (3 years ago)

    Thank You so much for this post. I am struggling with a deep loss and writing is my only solace. Much Gratitude! 🙂

  13. Leslie
    August 25, 2014 at 9:21 pm (3 years ago)

    Awesome, Carissa!! I'm attending my first writers conference in October. My knees are knocking together, but I'm going! Thanks for being transparent ;0)


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